May 11 2009
DEATH, Life and Yarn!
I’ve not posted here in quite some time. Many of you know My Mother was gravely ill for an extended time at the hospital. Things continued to worsen and finally she was released from the pain and suffering she endured. She died on April 13th. I haven’t done much with yarn since then. Seems the life went out of it as well. I made hats, booties, and scarves during her long 7 plus week stay; I’ve made nothing since. I have bags of yarn, my project bags everywhere…sitting, undisturbed. Some contain knitting projects, some contain crochet projects; but all remained unfinished.
A week ago, I decided I should try to start something new; thinking a fresh start might help to get me going again. A simple crochet scarf, something I could normally complete in 2 or 3 sittings. It’s still not finished. I keep looking at it; but that doesn’t seem to get the job done. It’s a nice wide man size, will when finished go to the homeless project. It’s now time to stock pile those things a bit; as the need is less with the onset of warmer weather. Though perhaps not needed right now, many of my started projects are.
I set goals for myself every year. Goals of how many items to knit and crochet and donate to charity. My goal for the last couple of years has been 200 items. I fell just slightly short of that number last year (9 short); this year I don’t think I’ll even come close as far behind as I now am.
I’m finding serenity being outside, planting flowers, and weeding the gardens. So for now, I’ve not much to show you; other than the blue and green crochet scarf…the one when finished will be stock piled for The Bridge and Beyond, homeless project.
Many thanks to all who’ve left beautiful comments to help me through this, they were and continue to be very much appreciated. I feel terribly behind also with knowing and understanding the changes here on Today. I must try to look through things on the forum later and see what I can learn
Enjoy your time outside, you will get inspiration. Adjustments after the loss of a loved one, takes time.
Good Luck to you.
Do a row or two a day, you’ll get there
I’m so sorry about your Mom. We’ve been doing some gardening lately and just this past week I’ve been working on some crochet projects again. I usually crochet during TV but just hadn’t been able to for about a month.
I am so sorry for your loss. There is a long period of adjustment ahead as your life gets all rearranged. Take time for yourself and what you need.
You have been very generous to the charities in the past and just now you are your very own charity.
May you find comfort in words from people you haven’t met except on your blog, from your garden, and someday soon from the rhythm of knitting or crocheting. Hope you have lots of good memories of your Mom and a strong support system that can give you hugs when needed.
Dear Sandy,
I am very sorry to hear about your mom. Take great care of yourself at this time - it is very understandable that you don’t feel much like making things. Don’t worry about that - just take time out to grieve.
It’s wonderful that you are finding comfort in your garden.
Thinking of you,
Roz
Hey sorry I didn’t leave a comment when I came by the other day. About the entrecard, yeah they said we can have the widget up but without the paid ads, I think it works for me because even though we don’t get paid for the ec traffic, some people might come across your blog through the ec widget and find it interesting and book mark it, so they would be coming back, and maybe telling their friends, I think it’s a good thing so I kept it up.
I know I popped over without commenting. I was probably logged in as admin and prefer to leave messages when I’m logged in under my account. It is hard to wear the blogger hat and the admin hat. Thanks for stopping by at BigShoes.
I’ll be praying for you and your family. I know it is a tough time and can relate as we went through similar a few years back with my father-in-law. It is draining and you have to take care of yourself. Good for you starting a new project!
Hi Sandy,
You dropped by and asked me why my horse Ladybug hadn’t been ridden in a year. The answer has something similar with your crocheting. Two years ago I lost my most favorite and best horse Hobo. I didn’t ride any of my horses last year mostly due do a feeling of guilt and loss from missing the old man. He’d been my main horse for 23 years and I’ve not gotten over his loss. It’s not easy animal or human, but at some point you realize that it’s time to move on to other things.
Good luck
Anna
Hi Sandy,
I’m sorry for your loss…I find much solitude with digging in the earth as well. However, while you have been playing in the dirt (which I have done all of my life), I have found joy in making my first knitted hat (through your inspiration, btw) Thank you!
~Wind
I’m sorry to hear about your mother. I am blessed to have my mother healthy-and still with me. I can’t imagine your pain.
I hope your crocheting and your gardening bring you comfort.
Just checking back, hope things are improving
I am sorry for your loss Sandy. But I’m glad gardening is helping you through. I look forward to your knitting projects when you are ready.